Here I sit thinking, my mind in a daze, with thoughts of regret hiding my rage.
I cry at night, reminiscing my loss, dreams of my daughter and the time that we've lost.
The illusion of happy washed away by the tears, the idea of hope repressed by my fears.
Good friends that i lost to the system are gone, The years that i lost while living so wrong.
misplaced aggression, guilty or not, does time really matter? because time doesn't stop.
Spending our lives, trying to plan for tomorrow, while time ticks away I'm driving full throttle.
days into weeks and weeks into years, The sum of my life a collection of tears,
from birth we are dying,all we are is your trying, does cash really matter or are we just lieing?
work hard they tell you, but who are they, saddened lost souls who are greedy for pay.
live your life like you want, to thy own self be true, and i hope cash will save you when this life is through.
Friday, February 15, 2013
Monday, January 14, 2013
why me
My first blog, a long time in the making. So if your reading this and you don't know me fair warning, i cuss like a motha fucker, i will write with bad grammar ,punctuation , etc not because i don't know the right way but because this is my blog and i don't give a fuck lol.
I'm 28 years old and i stop to take a look at my life, what do i notice ? life is fucked! Its 2013 I'm living in the future what a mind fuck, i live in a world where children are having kids, Facebook is connecting people instantly, and you can buy a fucking liter of soda for a dollar at McDonald's. We live in a police state where the government will not let us buy alcohol on Sunday because of some fucked up religious reason, yet will not let the word GOD in school. On monday through Saturday though you can get as sloppy shit faced belligerently drunk as your fucking alcoholic mind can handle and buy enough to swim in for Sunday and that's cool, You can even go to a bar where you can get shit faced drunk ,that is also controlled by the state via state liquor licences and taxes, on Sunday which defeats the fucking purpose in the first place. Now you can go to the bar and get drunk well you don't live at the fucking bar so you have to go home! Designated driver that's your answer? a don't even know but every drunk drunk i know has no licence how do you lose your licence you ask? o yeah drinking and driving so dd s obviously don't work wtf, my point is you already knew that proving my theory that the people are wise and our government is fucking controlled by idiots. Now your first DUI is a misdemeanor in this state. So You got really wasted, probably on a Sunday and tried to drive fifteen miles home swerving the whole way in a two ton truck with a ton of airbags to protect your stupid ass from death while you put EVERY SINGLE OTHER DRIVER on the road in danger of death ,You get pulled over and the cop pulls you out gives you a test you blow three times the legal limit. That's cool because now you have something really really cool to brag about at your next drunk party. Now you go to jail cool our illustrious judicial system now has hold of you, this should be good. You get a good lawyer, he says he does this all the time give him 5 grand and he will get you probation and a three month suspension, AWESOME now 5 grand later and a 1000 dollar bond our local government releases you into the public! let me recap you drank till you could no longer control yourself, Endangered everyone on the roads life, paid a little bit of money in comparison to the danger you put everyone in now your out, don't do it again. In this state you even get to drive a moped for a few months, MOPEDS ARE FUCKING REALLY FUN TO RIDE! Now lets turn the page The same man sits in his living room and smokes a joint, word gets out cops come arrest him because he had an ounce of weed. Never have they considered that if you ingest marijuana you might shop at the weed Costco and buy at a discount price for a quantity in my state more than 30 grams of weed is a felony but a man driving a fucking tanker of jack Daniels is not committing a crime at all unless he doesn't have a licence, so quantity of alcohol doesn't matter but 31 grams of weed a class d felony unless your within a thousand feet of a park then its a b felony o shit now your facing ten years and that's with good behavior. He didn't leave his house, He hasn't endangered anyone, He single handedly raised the stock of little Debbie snack cakes, now he is a felon for life cannot get a decent job to support his family, now he cannot ever have a gun in his house so when a fucking real criminal comes in his house to rape his wife and kill his children, he has to be defenseless and try and fight off an armed man probably a REAL felon with his hands. Most likely resulting in rape and death, Its really hard to get a passport, O get this one its a real kicker if you were bettering yourself and say going to college while your evil pot plight was discovered now you are not eligible for financial aid, government grants, or even medicaid state provided Health insurance if for any reason you cannot provide for your family ( and yes people, there are real needy people out there and not just system abusers). What The Fuck! The point of all this is to illustrate that our laws are so fucked that a man that was harming no one, can be totally Fucked by our government, that by the way is supposed to be for us not against us, and the fuck head that endangered peoples lives is out to drink and drive again! does anyone else see inconsistency's in the law and no one will do anything about it, that's just one example, Man owes child support i got it take his licence so he cant get to work! Here is a news flash to our self ritghious local government if said man was married to his wife and had a child, His riches are their riches, well same man loses his job, now instead of steak and potatoes him and his family might have to eat spam and corn! Is said man less of a man because he does what he can? Why is your FUCKING RIGHT TO SEE YOUR OWN CHILD under discussion? Why is there a nominal value that a judge can put on your family? Why do they put fathers that obviously cant pay the high ass child support that is required by the state in jail? Ill tell ya why because They don't give a fuck about you they give a fuck about MONEY! If you cant make enough to support your child beyond your means should you not have visitation? just a few thoughts on life I'm tired of ranting but stay tuned folks i got a million of em!
I'm 28 years old and i stop to take a look at my life, what do i notice ? life is fucked! Its 2013 I'm living in the future what a mind fuck, i live in a world where children are having kids, Facebook is connecting people instantly, and you can buy a fucking liter of soda for a dollar at McDonald's. We live in a police state where the government will not let us buy alcohol on Sunday because of some fucked up religious reason, yet will not let the word GOD in school. On monday through Saturday though you can get as sloppy shit faced belligerently drunk as your fucking alcoholic mind can handle and buy enough to swim in for Sunday and that's cool, You can even go to a bar where you can get shit faced drunk ,that is also controlled by the state via state liquor licences and taxes, on Sunday which defeats the fucking purpose in the first place. Now you can go to the bar and get drunk well you don't live at the fucking bar so you have to go home! Designated driver that's your answer? a don't even know but every drunk drunk i know has no licence how do you lose your licence you ask? o yeah drinking and driving so dd s obviously don't work wtf, my point is you already knew that proving my theory that the people are wise and our government is fucking controlled by idiots. Now your first DUI is a misdemeanor in this state. So You got really wasted, probably on a Sunday and tried to drive fifteen miles home swerving the whole way in a two ton truck with a ton of airbags to protect your stupid ass from death while you put EVERY SINGLE OTHER DRIVER on the road in danger of death ,You get pulled over and the cop pulls you out gives you a test you blow three times the legal limit. That's cool because now you have something really really cool to brag about at your next drunk party. Now you go to jail cool our illustrious judicial system now has hold of you, this should be good. You get a good lawyer, he says he does this all the time give him 5 grand and he will get you probation and a three month suspension, AWESOME now 5 grand later and a 1000 dollar bond our local government releases you into the public! let me recap you drank till you could no longer control yourself, Endangered everyone on the roads life, paid a little bit of money in comparison to the danger you put everyone in now your out, don't do it again. In this state you even get to drive a moped for a few months, MOPEDS ARE FUCKING REALLY FUN TO RIDE! Now lets turn the page The same man sits in his living room and smokes a joint, word gets out cops come arrest him because he had an ounce of weed. Never have they considered that if you ingest marijuana you might shop at the weed Costco and buy at a discount price for a quantity in my state more than 30 grams of weed is a felony but a man driving a fucking tanker of jack Daniels is not committing a crime at all unless he doesn't have a licence, so quantity of alcohol doesn't matter but 31 grams of weed a class d felony unless your within a thousand feet of a park then its a b felony o shit now your facing ten years and that's with good behavior. He didn't leave his house, He hasn't endangered anyone, He single handedly raised the stock of little Debbie snack cakes, now he is a felon for life cannot get a decent job to support his family, now he cannot ever have a gun in his house so when a fucking real criminal comes in his house to rape his wife and kill his children, he has to be defenseless and try and fight off an armed man probably a REAL felon with his hands. Most likely resulting in rape and death, Its really hard to get a passport, O get this one its a real kicker if you were bettering yourself and say going to college while your evil pot plight was discovered now you are not eligible for financial aid, government grants, or even medicaid state provided Health insurance if for any reason you cannot provide for your family ( and yes people, there are real needy people out there and not just system abusers). What The Fuck! The point of all this is to illustrate that our laws are so fucked that a man that was harming no one, can be totally Fucked by our government, that by the way is supposed to be for us not against us, and the fuck head that endangered peoples lives is out to drink and drive again! does anyone else see inconsistency's in the law and no one will do anything about it, that's just one example, Man owes child support i got it take his licence so he cant get to work! Here is a news flash to our self ritghious local government if said man was married to his wife and had a child, His riches are their riches, well same man loses his job, now instead of steak and potatoes him and his family might have to eat spam and corn! Is said man less of a man because he does what he can? Why is your FUCKING RIGHT TO SEE YOUR OWN CHILD under discussion? Why is there a nominal value that a judge can put on your family? Why do they put fathers that obviously cant pay the high ass child support that is required by the state in jail? Ill tell ya why because They don't give a fuck about you they give a fuck about MONEY! If you cant make enough to support your child beyond your means should you not have visitation? just a few thoughts on life I'm tired of ranting but stay tuned folks i got a million of em!
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